The sun is shining, the sky is the brightest blue and not a single cloud in the sky. You can smell it in the air… close your eyes… take a deep breath… relax.. This is as good as it gets…
I guess everyone knows of one person, the pessimist, the one person who can ruin anything with a single comment, who never appreciates anything. Well they done it again. Ruined the outcome of what i thought was going to be a great future to come.
Flash back……… A few years ago i was depressed.. depressed beyond belief. I over came that but it seems to be rearing its ugly head back again. But i don’t need to fall into that trap again.. i don’t.. but why do i feel as though it is coming back to reap the happiness from my soul.. I’m strong.. well i thought i was.. but in reality I’m weak. i can hand out advise to people who ask for it.. tell them its this and that and they thank me and i feel great about myself.. but i can not do the same for myself…. oh how i am a pitifully human being.. thank you.. You know who you are.. You never want me to be happy.. You blood sucking whore.. ill leave it at that…
i am afraid
there is no where to turn…
i am surrounded
by your ignorance…
SURROUNDED BY SO MANY…
i still cant get away from
my own loneliness…..
my sorrow
i reach out
YELL and SCREAM
YET……………………………
from the hundreds that are listening there is no response.
I will Always be here for you. I AM LIVING PROOF OF EVERLASTING FREINDSHIP AND THAT I INTEND TO KEEP PROVING.I am a shit freind coz im slack and consumed with “the wonderful world of zee” I wish it were different. I am not up your ass 24-7 or even once a week…hell not even once a month. I see you once a year and thats on my birthday…which you never fail to attend, you dont know how much that means to me. Thats everlasting freindship…(BTW when is your bloody birthday and how come I am never invited?!?)I dont need to hear you or see you to know that you care. You are a wonderful person Mr.Asik and you need to let go of your own past. What you wrote before was a bit of a condradiction to yourself about past being past. Let go. you told me I was lucky to have lived a full life…be it good or bad experiences and ive had both … but so have you. So now i am feeding you youre own words. You are lucky to have lived a full live Ertan Asik and smile and stop thinking too much and just live… because you have things to conquer..BECAUSE the world needs more people like you..because you are a special freind…because there is so many things about you to celebrate.I love you my freind and Thankyou for being my freind.
xo
wow.. i needed to hear that.. the reason i dont invite you to my bday.. becouse i dont celebrate it.. i morn the years that go past.. the day i do something to make my foot print on this earth then i shall celebrate.. and the world will be invited…